"when you find your castle on the hill
with the bars on the windows
will you burn the bridge behind you
will you ever come out and see the sun again
or will you hide
and now how long has it been
since you've seen the light"
-Eighties (Lifehouse)
Have you ever found yourself in a moment where your tongue was tied?
You just start speaking what comes to mind and only moments later you whisper to yourself, "I've made a huge mistake..."
Foot in mouth disease is far more common than most ailments. I think that at one point or time in our lives, we have decided individually that we've arrived to where we need to be and have everything figured out.
The fact of the matter is this...you'll never arrive as long as you're alive.
I've been working on the topic of "Discovery and Journey". In the near future I plan on writing about the one person, thing, or idea that everybody is searching for no matter where they are at in life.
For the next few weeks I'll be focusing on our lives and the journey we must take in order to find fulfillment and satisfaction. It's a difficult one that leaves cause for a lot of blood, sweat, and even more tears.
It begins right now and with anybody willing to start over. It's about a pursuit for something bigger than yourself.
Back to my original point I was starting to make...lately, it feels as though I've been kicking myself over making stupid statements to certain people in my life. Maybe I'm speaking out of insecurity and just an all around need to feel accepted by those I respect and love; but regardless, I'm starting to understand the need for people to like you.
I've never been one to want to be loved by everyone, and I'm still a proponent to the fact that you shouldn't care what others think about you...but only if you are attempting to be the absolute best version of yourself.
You can't win everyone over, which makes it hard when you really want someone to like you. There are a few options to making things work.
You could:
1. Give up.
2. Cower behind your doubt.
3. Run away.
4. Face yourself.
I'd say option 4 will be the most rewarding experience, because even if it breaks you to pursue something or someone, in the end, you'll be able to walk around with your back straight and head up high.
So between now and my next entry, I wish to invite you along with me as we discover what it means to live together and hurt together. It's okay to bleed along the way, as long as only a few close friends are there to bandage you up.
It's time to grow.
It's time to live.
It's time for Rebirth.
-Christopher Peters
